Its Me Today

Today is such a beautiful day, I started my lovely day off at work! This was my second day at my new job and things are going pretty good. It did change my life faster than I prepared! 

This was me this morning being silly on the way to work. Rocking my Ka'oir Cosmetics lipstick "SEX"

In this picture I was rocking Keyshia Dior's lipstick "I LOVE U" Ka'oir Cosmetics!! I LOVE IT!

Currently my two best friends is over my house and we just went out for drinks and sushi since it's such a HOT day! The sushis was the bomb.com LOL! Seriously, it was delicious!

This is my son Kody and my best friend's son Jaden! Kody is 6 months and Jaden is 2 years old. What was wrong with them?? lol The looks on their faces are hilarious! Everyone says they're going to be best friends like their parents (My best friend and I)!! I actually believe that to be true. 

This is them two again when my son was first born. He wanted to pick up Kody so bad he didn't care if I said no or anything!! Lol too cute.

Two GREAT mothers and two BEST friends!! I love her!! Only a few people can say they have a friend that is there no matter what, but I CAN! I've been best friends with her since 3rd grade!! That's a long time and we have NEVER left each other out in the world to die lol (figure of speech). Nothing but good times.

New day, Same Ish

It's 2:30pm and I really just fell asleep around 6 or 7 this morning. It was very long night for me. Me an my son hanging out today. LOVE this fella. && when I seen these Jordan Retros I so had to cop them for  my lil man and I! We rocking our matching shoes today.

Kody is loving his new shoes!!! Lol he is so fly! Thanks to his mommy, ME. Ko loves wearing brand new clothes and shoes. He acts up too. My lil man is a trip, can't help but to love him.

They look great on my feet if I may say so myself lol. 

All of my KA'OIR Nail Polish came this morning!! Ahh I truly am obsessed with Ka'oir Cosmetics by Keyshia Dior. Female readers: You guys have to check out, I'm telling you!


Keyshia Dior cosmetics can only be purchased at her website.


www.kaiorcosmetics.com


Here is my KA'OIR COSMETICS COLLECTION! I have everything!! Lucky me! Lol It's nothing but QUALITY! Don't sleep on Keyshia Dior products.

I'm Up

I'm so tired and sleepy and right now. I had a very long day dealing with a lot of unnecessary stuff as usual. I'm starting to think that it's a part of my life. But I'm wide awake because I really can't breathe, it feels like my upper area is all congested. Then when I close my eyes to try and go to sleep, right at that moment I stop breathing. Now, this has happened before a couple of weeks ago for the first time. VERY SCARY. I think it maybe something I ate, that I'm now allergic to. If only I could remember what I ate the last time this breathing issue took place. Lol. I really don't feel good like this is such an annoying feeling. Especially, when I want and NEED to go to sleep!!

Sometimes I pretend as if I'm not sensitive or emotional but I am. I have feelings just like any other female out in the world. The things people say to me leaves me to the point where all I can do is shake my head. I know a lot of times the person may say something towards me as a joke, but I actually take it to heart. EVEN THOUGH, I recently read in the bible that one should not take NEGATIVE things personal. I'm working to do fix that though. Trust me. 

To my readers: Have you ever been afraid to be happy? Well, I finally realized that I am! All my life, anytime I was happy the happiness would be taken from me somehow. Anytime something was given to me to bring happiness, it would be taken from me. I then realized that nothing good lasts forever well at least not as long as the bad things. I just have this feeling that once I make this first step towards furthering my happiness, it will be taken from me. So you know what I do?? I just continue to stay afraid. But where does this get me? Absolutely nowhere! But it's just very hard, ya know? Nobody REALLY understands. 

Many people want to walk in my shoes through the good times, but NO ONE would be able to manage if they had to deal with all the stress I deal with. It's like I try SOOOOO hard not to hurt people I care about, but I end up hurting them anyway. And that really hurts me. *tears flowing* Thought I was helping myself, but I'm feeling worst. I just don't know anymore. All I know is that never make permanent decisions from temporary feelings and emotions. Never take someone for granted because when he/she is gone, what will you have left? Probably nothing.

He deserves better than me and that's how I feel. Like why can't I just do all the things that's right. So I sit and think and I realized I don't deserve you. Why do I feel this way in my life? Why can't I just run and hide from the pain that I've given you? I feel like no matter what happens I'll always need you. 

R.I.P. Ashley Clark!! Ima miss you girl! Much love

Peace&&Love,

Chaily

Look Alike

For nearly 10 years, i always get stopped by people who say this, "Has anyone ever told you that you look just like Chilli?" And it's so annoying! I mean don't get me wrong, she's a beautiful lady! To me, we look NOTHING alike. I hate the fact that she hasn't changed up her style since she FIRST CAME OUT! Chilli still styles her hair the same with the "curly natural" style. I can say that we BOTH take pride in our naturally long hair!! 


Judge for yourself!

Thoughtful

So, I'm sitting here thinking and I want to start my own mentoring program. I mainly want to focus on girls and boys LIFE ISSUES. Once I get the program started I will then focus on the EDUCATION part. I will definitely be a success because I know people all around my community and family that I would love to help. I have a name for the mentoring program, but I don't want to let it be known until later! 


Out of ALL of the things I've learned in life this HAS to be MOST IMPORTANT one: Never stress about things you can't change!!!! For the past year or so I can definitely say that I worry about things I can no longer control. I stress about other people issues that have NOTHING to do with me. I've always stressed so bad to the point that I would make myself sick. And that's tragic! It's time I give my family and I quality time. I spent my whole life giving to others that I forgot to put myself first! 


At the dinner table, my mom and grandma asked me what was wrong. I didn't know how to answer because I didn't know where to start. I tend to focus on things that aren't where I want them to be than focusing on the things that are RIGHT! I learned that I have to be thankful for the things I already have. School loans and financial aid has really been getting to me. It's the fact that NEVER in a million years would I think I would be in so much DEBT over STUDENT LOANS!!!! I mean I'm only 22 years of age and I don't want to start out life in debt. It really sucks! But hey, I guess I'll spend half of my life paying back loans with interest!! NOT COOL. I hope it's all worth it in the end.

I had a pretty GREAT day. I really can't complain so I'll be thankful. This was me today.

Tonight is GREAT!

My best friend is a bartender so she helped me make this drink....Can you say DELICIOUS!!!

ALSO I MADE THIS #TWEEGRAM ON MY iPHONE A FEW MINUTES AGO!! I F YOU THINK I'M CRAZY AFTER READING, THEN I PROBABLY AM! LOL, BUT NO SERIOUSLY!! :)

Oh..I decided to pamper myself tonight by giving my self a manicure and pedicure! I also gave myself a facial. I would include a picture with my facial cream on but I rather NOT! LMAO

Ready For Spring

 Ok, Spring can't come any faster!! I'm so ready, but then again I feel like I still want to be more shopping. Shopping is my TRUE ADDICTION!! It can't be stopped, trust ME.  

Yayyyyy! Lol PINEAPPLE PATRON SHOTS! I LOVE LOVE LOVE SHOTS!!

It's the AMERICAN WAY! Lmao Don't Judge Me.

What am I styling??

Top: Daydreamer

Bottom: Vintage Cut-Off Shorts

Shoes: Jeffery Campbell

Purse: Chanel Clutch