Left Alone

It's really been weighing on me. Tell me what did I do to have y'all hating on me?? When I don't have nothing to prove! Sometimes I shake my head when I'm laying down in my bed..thinking about the things that have been said. When you really don't even know me yet. 


I gotta clear up some things. There has been many things said about me..SO MANY OPINIONS, SO MANY JUDGEMENTS; preconceived! Now it's out of my character to feed into ya so just give it a REST!! 


You must admire me, spend so much time with me; CONSUMED IN YOUR HEAD! And I can't take no more. I think it's time for me to let it all out! I can't take no more! Why is my name ALWAYS up in your mouth??


What you hate me for? I'm so tired of all these lies! I CAN'T TAKE NO MORE! NO MORE...NO MORE! It's really been weighing on me. I'm not myself lately, feeling a little incomplete. But one thing for sure! I'm NOT gonna lose no SLEEP!! I keep it all in my mind. Cuz I gotta get better in time. 


Why don't y'all live y'all life and let me live mine?? JUST LEAVE ME ALOOOONNNNEE!!!!! I honestly don't wanna be bothered with no one! EVERYBODY!

Taking A Break

Hi you guys!! I have a lot of things going on right now in my life. So I'm taking a mini break from my blog until I get myself together. But, if I just need to let things off my chest I WILL definitely be back to blog!


Much Love,
Chaily

Whateverrr, Blah

So, I finally received my luggage for my trip to Spain, Italy, France!!! I'm so excited y'all! This my second HUGE vacation that I will be going on. I seriously need it.

 AHHHH! My 3 "BEST" FRIENDS IN THIS WORLD! They came over today and played the "Wii" game. We played Just Dance 3 and it is a serious workout! I mean it's ridiculous y'all.

  I took this picture for them! LOL look at my godson walking through. Love that lil guy. They were serious about that game!! 

Everybody Can't Be Happy

It sucks to know I have a million and one questions that will never be answered. Like, why can't everyone just be happy? I try so hard to please everyone, that I've realized I'm not happy myself! I've been worrying about other people problems that I have some of my own. I feel like I have world's weight on my shoulders and it's weighing me down. I have people that are very close to me pulling me left and right. The sad part is that their unaware of their doing, WELL at least I don't think they do. My daddy always tell me, "Chail you can;t make everybody happy, that's just life so stop trying!"  


I will go through anything to make sure my loved ones are beyond good because that's just who I am. I can't help who I am this is the way God has made me. So many people tell me "You care too much, just let it or them go," but I just can't do that. It's not that easy for me to do that, ya know. I think that's one of my weaknesses. I've also came to realize that I'm not perfect at all. And for someone to be in love with me for who I am is the best feeling in the world. You have to cherish that because it can easily be taken away.


Peace&&Love,
Chaily

Too Much Confidence

God has officially pushed me back in my place. Sometimes we as "his children" get ahead of ourselves and place ourselves even above him. And clearly, he doesn't too much like that.


For quite awhile, I have kind of put myself SO HIGH that I look at myself as if I'm God. He's probably been trying to give me chances to bring it down some, but I didn't so he took matters into his own hands. I've always looked at myself like I'm better than everyone else because IT'S ME! But it doesn't work that way. God has now placed me in situations where now I'm just like everyone else. It's like saying, "You're special in you're own way but don't dare place yourself on this extremely HIGH PEDESTAL!" And now I understand my issues a little bit better now.


So, now I have to make things right so everything else in my life will fall in place. Apologies to everyone I have ever really done wrong and to my child's father, sorry!


Peace&&Love,
Chaily

Just Blogging

Sitting here editing and revising my suspense prose fiction for class. I can barely finish because I'm really missing him. :-(
As I'm typing my story I end up typing: Drevin, baby I miss you and love you so much. This guy has became my life! And everyone is wondering why I'm still typing this story, when I've been working on it for about 6 hours straight. NOW, you see why! LOL I can't help it at all.
But I just submitted it, so now I'm playing a game on my laptop with my Dre beats headphones on! And then the funny thing is that I'm watching "Mean Girls" on Tv with music playing. LOL, DON'T JUDGE ME! I always catch myself doing this. I'm kind of mad that I didn't get to see him today nor watch LMN (Lifetime Movie Network) and today was LIFETIME SUNDAY! Like how did I miss it?!  My mom had me all over the city doing shopping...SHOPPING c'mon you know I HAD to take the offer! lol


OH! And today I learned the TRUE meaning of the saying "Let them live their life" or "Let them do them." Even though my big brother is the oldest I always find myself "babying" him. I'm the MAIN reason why he never fails in life, I always run to the rescue. I always try to make sure he's ok and happy. I make sure he never has any problems, but he doesn't do the same. Don't ask me why because I really don't know. It's not that I wish the worse for him relationship wise, but I just miss MY BROTHER! I miss the old good times where we always hung out and talked to one another about any and everything. We were best friends and now we barely talk. IT SUCKS! But hey, I guess it's life.


Anyways, I'm done talking to you guys about that. MOVING ON! K, great. Be back later!




Peace&&Love,
Chaily

My Family = My Life

If you know me personally, you know I love my close family very dearly. This is half of my family lol! There's nothing I wouldn't do for them. Yes, we definitely have our ups and downs with each other! But what my family doesn't? "Families are like fudge, mostly sweet with a few nuts." When you look at your life, the greatest happinesses are family happinesses. The family.  We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together.  

Mommy && Daddy

These two people are my LIFE. They're absolutely amazing! The bond they have together is something I really admire. Their great people especially great parents because they made me lol. But I look up to them when it comes to relationships and marriages. They balance each other out in every way. My mommy and daddy always right there whenever I need em'. They're truly a blessing, I want and need them forever!! Since they're in love, I'm in love with them for never giving up on each other. My mommy and daddy are HOT together! LOL

Mommy and I, she was excited about her FIRST
grandson!!

Mom has always been one of my biggest supporters and the wisdom she has given me over the years has helped shaped the person I am today. She's my backbone and my own personal Dr. Phil LOL A mother's love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity. It dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path.

Me && Mommy

She's my backbone, my everything. Everyday she shows me how much she loves me! I'm so thankful for her presence in my life!! Everyone calls us twins because we're just alike in so many ways. I get my goofiness and silliness from my mama. There isn't a mountain she wouldn't climb for me. My mama provides me with support when it comes to my child because she wants nothing but the best. I love that she refers to me as her "PRINCESS" !! That lady is my best friend and my sister all-in-one. It doesn't get any better than that. I really love her and I'm going to do whatever I have to do in life to get her Everything her heart desires.

Me and my lil brother!! Ahhh I love this guy soooo much. He understands me so well. Anytime I need someone to be on my side or to just hear me out, this is the person I go to. To this day, I treat him like a little baby because in my eyes he's still a newborn lol. I never want him to grow up. But he's 20 now so I have to do better. This picture was taken at his high school GRADUATION!!!!! I was too excited that day, nothing could go wrong. It seemed like forever, but it was right on time. I love this guy.

My lil sister and I. Ugh, I think we have more bad days than good ones LOL. No, just kidding! She's just like me though. I finally realized that she looks up to me in everything I do. She even told me she wants to be just like me. And I'm already an emotional girl, I cried when she said that to me. We fuss and fight but I wouldn't trade her in for the world.

My aunties and I at my cousin's 40th birthday party. These women LOVE me! lol Seriously though. I love them two tho. We have so much fun together. When we party together it feels like I'm out with my friends instead of my aunts. {They still think they're young!!!!} LOL they're gonna kill me when they read this, but it's true! Nothing but love though!

I love my daddy oh so much!

Daddy, Mommy, Cousin

Me and my two sisters.

My big brother and little brother.

 My big brother: I love him very much. We have our ups and downs but it's life! He's there always to put a smile on my face. He loves me for who I am. We have that sisterly/brotherly bond that no one can bend or break. At least I HOPE not!! LMAO ok ok just playing guys. But hey, we're family.

Me and MOST of my blood siblings!

Most Wearable Styles 2012 Spring

Spring 2012 Trend: Cheerful Color-Blocking

Spring runways were more colorful than the crowd at a Lady Gaga concert. Bold, solid-color pieces—like a cardi and skirt, wrap dress or demure one-piece suit—make simple dressing look glam. Our style tip: Stick to three colors max to avoid the girly, Rainbow Brite look.

Sophie Theallet, Marc by Marc Jacobs, Tommy Hilfiger, spring 2012

Spring 2012 Trend: Anoraks

Spring 2012’s cool-girl anoraks—as seen at Tommy Hilfiger, Edun and Jason Wu—are a win-win as far as we’re concerned: They fit in with spring’s sporty vibe and promise to make your rainy days look chic. What’s not to love?

Jason Wu, Edun, Tommy Hilfiger, spring 2012

Spring 2012 Trend: Super Bold 

Prints

There are prints, and then there are PRINTS. All caps are necessary to describe the vibrant, swirling, styled-head-to-toe patterns that sashayed down the spring 2012 runways. While there’s plenty to choose from—oversize florals, mirrorlike geometric shapes, even parrot prints—we like how designer Joseph Altuzarra paired his fruit-punch blazer over a super-simple black top and pants.

Spring 2012 Trend: Oranges and Tangerines

Just before New York Fashion Week kicked off, Pantone Institute shared its prediction for the most popular colors of spring 2012, and it was spot-on: The pick for spring’s numero uno shade, Tangerine Tango, was all over the runways. And if tangerine isn’t your citrus of choice, there are plenty more orange hues to choose from. Wear one color and look chic? How easy is that!

Sophie Theallet, Steven Alan, Doo-Ri, spring 2012

Spring 2012 Trend: Pink Shorts Suits

Sure, this trend might not have been automatically filed under “wearable,” but we give this leggy-yet-office-appropriate look major props for its versatility: Wear the blazer and shorts separately for a whole new set of cute outfits! Smart dressing, indeed.

Nanette Lepore, DKNY, Jenni Kayne, spring 2012

Spring 2012 Trend: Futuristic Prints

With so many pixilated prints and swirling graphics, it’s clear someone’s been having fun with Photoshop. If you’re feeling tired of classic patterns like plaids, stripes and polka dots, then spring 2012’s futuristic-print trend is for you. To keep things in this day and age (and not, say, full-on Jetsons era), pair a techno-print piece with something simple like a won’t-go-out-of-style-for-light-years t-shirt.

Spring 2012 Trend: Pastel Shades

If wild, look-at-me hues aren’t your thing, worry not: New York Fashion Week’s most esteemed designers have got your back.(And your front. And your legs. You get the picture). Spring’s sweet sorbet shades and pastel hues give off a low-key, ladylike vibe.

Carolina Herrera, Narciso Rodriguez, spring 2012

Spring 2012 Trend: Colorful Camo

Camo usually feels heavy-duty, but spring’s versions are more ladylike thanks to soft, pretty pastels. How to pull it off in the urban jungle? Treat it like it goes with everything by styling it up with other patterns and colors and suddenly your friends will be calling on you to merchandise their closets and approve their spring splurges. Keep it stealth—they don’t have to know that your cool new camo did the heavy lifting.

Spring 2012 Trend: Metallic Basics

Go-to wardrobe favorites—from wrap skirts and slim trousers to stacked heel loafers—turn into going-out gear when they come covered in shiny bronze or liquid emerald green. If you need to have a Footloose moment and steal the dance-floor spotlight, wear one of these!

Diesel, Theysken’s Theory, spring 2012

Spring 2012 Trend: Peplum skirts, shirts and dresses

Flirt without saying a word in this season’s peplum skirts, dresses and tops, defined by a short flared ruffle that sits at the natural waist (that’s the tiny part!). High heels and your steadiest eyeliner flick will seal the deal on your spring glam plan.

Rodarte, Thakoon, Cushnie et Ochs, spring 2012

The Love We Got

My heart, HE TAKES. He'll always be my baby We may bend, Won't break. What we got no one else to take. He's the sun when my day is low, I'm his picture in front front row. His love is the center of my attention. See y'all dont know what he'd do for me. That guy is MY EVERYTHING! We argue, we fight..Then we make up by the end of the night. Don't even speak it! We know what we got! And i love him, he loves me!!

And this is how love should be
Im down for the love that he got 
And he stays down for the love that we got
I love him, he loves me

He's embebed in myspace
Everytime he speaks he blows me away
Dont care what people say
As long as hes in the same place where i lay
See ill be as that goes
Im his princess hes my general
And no matter what you think about love
Time wont outlast us

The miles I'd walk for him are infinite
Ill run circles around the world
And everyday im beside him feals heaven sent
And all else is irrelevant
So keep on exsuding your love on to me

OK GUYS! I know y'all probably tired of my little love blogs, but I'm really in love!! LOL so bare with me!


Much Love,
Chaily

My Heart

Ok, So Jennifer Hudson's NEW song is really jammin' on the one! It's called "No One Gonna Love You" and I'm so in love with it! Her vocals has strengthened in this song! I can really relate to this song, like there is nothing better than listening to a song that takes YOUR feelings and put them in a song!! #Priceless

&& that's how I feel about my dude, he's my WORLD! I honestly don't think no one could ever appreciate and love him like I DO. He's definitely one person I ALWAYS want to see smile and happy. That dude makes me so proud!

#ConfessionHour

I love to pick fights with him especially when I know exactly how he's going to react. LOL I love it!

When we're away from each other and I'm missing him oh so much, I read all of our text messages and I feel so lucky to be his wife all over again.


I'm beyond excited about all of our new blessings that's coming to us especially our new place! There is nothing more beautiful than coming home and waking up to the one you love so much.

The Family: "KKDD" lol (insider) I love us.

My love bug stops my heart, I can't focus on anything.


I can't fight it, he's taking all the air I breathe! {NICE! I'm so smooth lol}


If I could make time stand still, then I know we'll live this moment forever.


And I really hate missing you, I'd rather be kissing you.
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Peace&&Love,
Chaily